I Find..

Myself being more and more disappointed with my life.
And how little it seems I've accomplished.
And how the only person I need to impress now is myself.. That's who matters to me right now..

I think I deserve something good in my life,
I deserve to be proud of myself.
I deserve to feel like I matter, not brought down to feel like I don't.

I need a change, not in the present, but in the future..

I want to change.
I must change.
I will be the change.

-Rafael

No real title this time

I think I might start blogging again..
Figured too many thoughts go unspoken and more so, unwritten.

I have to accept that I am going to get hurt
I have to accept that there is no going back
I have to accept that I may not make it through this

But I'm ready, now more than ever.

"I know what's best for me
But I want you instead."

Such a flow of tears

I can't seem to stop them.
No matter how many times I rub my eyes and tell myself to stop, I can't stop the crying.

I am the poster child of a tragic hero.