Probably my most heart-felt entry to date.

I don't know what to write...
I just feel like I need to...

Why is this eating away at me so damn much?
I don't get it...

I saw things I didn't want to see,
I found out things I didn't want to know

It feels like everything I've been told till now has been a lie.
And it hurts,
It's not a physical pain, it's a deep kind of soul-hurt.
I'm trying to numb it all out
And I know I'll succeed.

Nobody is perfect
I know that, I accept that,

But don't show signs of change unless it's truly going to happen...

Don't change unless your going to hold on through it all.
Don't change for him, don't change for me, don't change for anyone but yourself.
But DO change.

I'll carry you on my shoulders if I have to, and I want to..
I can't save everyone... I probably can't even save anyone.
That's why, in the end, it's you that will have to save yourself

I promise you, I'll always be here.
Even if you don't believe always exists.

In the end,
We're the only ones that can save ourselves...

I love you,
-Rafael