I hate over thinking, I hate thinking in general.
I hate it, I hate seeing this much.
Today was me and Ivory's 2 month anniversary,
I gave her a rose, a necklace I made myself, and a card this morning.
And it was a good morning, just me and her,
Lips connected, heart racing, and I could feel the warmth of my body leaving me and going to her.
It was one of the best, no, it was the best morning I've ever had.
But...
I noticed something in our embrace, her eyes seemed distracted, or rather, hollow. Like there wasn't anything there. Like she wasn't there. It was strange.
Seeing Jesse, and her relationships with people, and how no matter what, she always sees a piece of Spencer in everyone or she is with people because she uses them as a distraction from him, I can't help but wonder..
Does Ivory think of someone else when she's with me? Is she with me as an escape from someone else?
I hate thinking,
Dammit...
Why can't I just be happy?
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