This is who I was, who I am, and who I may become.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Post #99

How she does this to me, I don't know.

I find it so strange, how no matter how much she may upset me during the course of my day, as soon as I see her, a part of me lights up. No matter how bad the day, or how much bothers me, just that one brief moment I get with her when I kiss her makes everything calm again.

I find a small ache inside my heart every time I part from her.

A part of me doesn't want to get close. The part that see's her actions as false. The part of me that thinks I don't mean anything to her. That I'm just a fill-in in her life. That everything I give lacks meaning. That when we kiss, it's just out of habit, not out of any meaning.

But another part, the small flame in me, see something hidden in her. A special kind of potential that I have yet to see in any other person. The part of me that sees the person she may become and loves it. The part of me that senses that maybe I do mean something special, maybe I do hold a special place in her heart and in her mind.

I'm prepared for whatever side to be right,
But I truly hope I mean something...

I want to hope again.

-Rafael

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