But mainly shame

Not sure what's going on with me now,
My mind and body are in a flurry.

I'm fluctuating between hope and pain.
Hope that things will work out,
Pain that things probably won't.

It feels like it will all end within the next few days, or within the next week.
I keep praying, screaming in my head, asking God to please make this work.

To please heal her
So that in turn I can be healed too.

My life feels too insignificant, especially if I can't help her..

This is going to destroy me and I'll have to rebuild like I always do.
But this time I'm not so sure if all the pieces will fit the same way again...

I don't know who I'll become when this is over.

I just hope it won't be over, that things will work, that I won't feel the pain and loneliness anymore..

Pray, Wish, Cry

-Falling Guardian