I really need to start meditating again.
As well as writing and finishing new poems/songs.

There is a lot I'd like to rekindle from my past, but it's difficult to restart the flames I once had burning in me.
Starting completely new ones is even harder.

I despise this permanent feeling that resides in me, the feeling that I can never mean the world to someone. That I lack a meaning. A part of me knows that this isn't true but there is still another part that believes it.

I'm having another anxiety attack right now, dammit I hate when she makes me feel like shit. I hate when I feel worthless to her. I hate it I hate it I hate it!
I feel like all I do is screw up, I feel like I can't do things right.

My tears soak my face.
I feel so alone........

-Falling Guardian