I never thought

I'd despise myself this much.
I'd be disgusted with myself.

I hate this body,
I hate these emotions,
I hate so much.

But most of all I hate how much it makes me question what love is
And why the hell I can't love or be loved like I wish I could.

My looks are bad,
My talents are worse,
There is nothing special about me.

I'm just an old broken toy,
From since I was born that's what I was.

Can someone please...
Please...
Just fix me.

-Rafael