I wish I knew

How to change everything that's wrong with me.
How to be more appealing,to mean something.

My eyes water as I type this and with every blink I see my fists hitting me.
I keep thinking I deserve to feel this but can't imagine why anyone would deserve this..

I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I HATE MYSELF
I HATE MYSELF
I HATE MYSELF

God I hate myself...

Circle by Flyleaf

Circle encircles the earth
Chance and choice break his heart
His innocent arm moves
To save me and I am spared

His beautiful arm is bloody and cut off
His heart ripped out to show me he loved me
But I would'nt believe him
He did all that he could, I still would not believe him

I left his arms empty and tied
Outstretched for me until he died
I left his arms empty and tied
Outstretched for me until he died

No man shows greater love
Than when a man lays down his life for his beloved

I left his arms empty and tied
Outstretched for me until he died
I left his arms empty and tied
Outstretched for me until he died

And here I'm alive
And I don't have the right
He gave me the right costing him his life
New mercy's in the morning

I believe, what if I believe you now?
Could it ever change this?
Forgive me, don't leave me
And please come back to life

I believe, what if I believe you now?
Could it ever change this?
Forgive me, don't leave me
And please come back to life
Come back to my life

I believe, what if I believe you now?
Forgive me, relieve me
Please come back life

This is my song...

As I crash and burn...

Osama Bin Laden is dead

And what I've deduced from what she just told me, if I died right now, I'd be seeing him in hell..

Religion can be a heart breaker..

-Rafael