I'm struggling to find the point...

Why am I this way?
And why can't I get rid of these demons...

I'm surrounded by walls.
I put them up to protect me, not just from outside pain but from my own pain.
And too many times I let those walls down to help others, to try and see the face of good. To see a good deed go rewarded and a bad one punished. But instead I see the face bad far too often, to the point where no good can balance it out.

It's all chaos.

But when I put my walls up I'm faced with an equally disturbing problem: Myself

I'm split in two, in everything. Every decision I'm faced with.
Though most see the good part of me, there is still a bad part, the monster I'm stuck with.
It was made as my defense, a back up for the walls of mine that crumbled so long ago, and now I'm struggling to get rid of it.

I can't cope with seeing any more of this. I can hardly take it.

The best thing I have to help is my music...
Artist: Red
Album: Innocence and Instinct
The album meant to help cope with the fight inside that we face. For the people with their own personal monster.
Like me.

I miss you so damn much